About A Dream and Favorite Song

Gak ada yang istimewa dari hari-hariku di Jakarta, walaupun bagi orang kebanyakan semua hal yang aku lakukan begitu istimewa. Mungkin pada akhirnya aku akan sampai pada satu keputusan bahwa aku memang tidak suka 'Settled'. Pada dasarnya, memang setiap manusia tidak bisa mempertahankan apapun yang menjadi miliknya, untuk tetap menjadi miliknya. "That's not how life works", seperti kata Ted Mosby. Jadi akan menjadi suatu hal yang sangat biasa jika kita tiba-tiba merasa bosan akan sesuatu. Karena hidup memang seperti itu, bahkan perputarannya cepat sekali.

Di hari yang aku gak pernah sangka, aku memimpikan sebuah nama: 'Sondra'. At least sampai sekarang aku masih mengingat bagaimana parasnya, and damn I can't forget the whole story of the dream at all. Tubuh yang tinggi dan tegap, kulit sawo matang, rambut bergelombang, dan mata bulat namun tajam. Dia membawa backpack disana.


 

Sebenarnya, bukan hal yang mudah untuk aku memimpikan siapapun. Dan Sondra ini, aku gak pernah bertemu dia dimanapun. Jadi, aku hanya berpendapat (dengan kinerja otakku yang begitu praktis), bahwa saat itu aku sedang kesepian dan membutuhkan teman. Setidaknya teman untuk membawaku menuju kebebasan. You know, working life kinda sucks. I need something to distract me and get new zestful days. And then I was.

Sondra is nice. He only sat beside me and keep silent. He said nothing, he just accompanied me. Actually, that is exactly what I need right now. I just want to be accompanied, I don't want any good suggestion or something else. I don't need to talk anything because I know everybody got their own problems. So, Sondra, will you come again to my dream?

Agak lucu rasanya memikirkan Sondra yang kala itu cuma duduk diam di sampingku, dan hanya menawarkan sebatang rokok. Hey, life is exactly like that. You don't have to be playful. You just have to sit down beside your friend and share the 'fags'.

After the day I dreamed Sondra, aku mulai sering mendengarkan lagu yang telah masuk di daftar 'Life-time Favorites', 'Protection' by Massive Attack. That song is actually about me. If you don't know the lyrics, so I'll write in here.

Terlepas dari Sondra dan Protection-nya Massive Attack, aku harus mengakui satu hal: manusia gak akan bisa hidup sendiri. Happiness is meaningful when shared, kalau kata Alexander Supertramp.

Thank you Sondra for living me up again, buat aku sadar kalau cita-citaku masih ada dan bisa menjadi nyata. Your appearance, that backpacker look, it's kinda the highest caste of my dream. I want to explore the world.

x.o

Stellar

Sondra likely wanted to say this to me (of course, in that silence.)

PROTECTION

[Tracy Thorn & Massive Attack]

This girl I know needs some shelter
She don't believe anyone can help her
She's doing so much harm, doing so much damage
But you don't want to get involved
You tell her she can manage
And you can't change the way she feels
But you could put your arms around her

I know you want to live yourself
But could you forgive yourself
If you left her just the way
You found her

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a boy and i'm a girl
But you know you can lean on me
And I don't have no fear
I'll take on any man here
Who says that's not the way it should be

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

She's a girl and you're a boy
Sometimes you look so small, look so small
You've got a baby of your own
When your baby's gone, she'll be the one
To catch you when you fall

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a girl and i'm a boy..

Sometimes you look so small, need some shelter
Just runnin' round and round, helter skelter
And I've leaned on me for years
Now you can lean on me
And that's more than love, that's the way it should be
Now I can't change the way you feel
But I can put my arms around you
That's just part of the deal
That's the way I feel
I'll put my arms around you

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection

You're a boy and i'm a girl..